The Honest Truth

Hey everyone!  Happy Tuesday:):)  It's crazy that we're almost to the end of July already:(  That means my break is almost over with and it also means I will be going back to school soon!  Summers in the past, seemed to have been not quite as productive for me, but this summer I have kept myself busy with all sorts of things.  All of those things mainly revolved around exercise and eating healthier!

Today, I hopped on the scale couldn't believe what I saw...I was/am the same weight that I was at my wedding just a little over a year today!  Since I started talking about my weight loss journey on my blog, I haven't mentioned the amount of weight that I am or was.  I have been dreading this post for a while and that's because I was so embarrassed and haven't really told anyone except for my hubby, which that even was hard for me to do.  I figured if I told him that it would hold me more accountable to get to my goal and continue making good choices!  So, today, I'm going to share with you my starting point and where I am now...I'm a little scared and a little embarrassed of what I'm going to tell you, but I guess it's only part of my journey.  I won't be at the weight, I am at now for long, so I guess that makes me feel a little better:)

When I started this weight loss chapter at the end of May, I was 197 lbs!!!  When I officially started my weight loss journey in June I was 194!  I have NEVER, EVER seen these numbers on the scale and I sure as hell didn't want to get to 200 lbs, especially on a 5'4 frame.  I decided right then and there, with the help of a friend, that I needed to get this under control:-/  I saw this quote on Pinterest and thought this was so fitting for me to also make this pledge!

My Pledge!

Life As We Know IT...

Why does life have to be soo complicated?  Why can't life be simple, easy, and great all the time?  I know some people say you have to have the bad times to realize the good ones.  Why do terrible things happen to deserving people?  Why is it when life is going great there is a HUGE road block lurking around the corner?  How can people look you in the face and tell you something that's a complete lie?  How can people live a lie for six years and be sorry even after being given a second chance?  Are they really sorry or sorry for being caught in their lies? Are their lies so big and complicated that they lie to themselves to make it feel better and make themselves look better?  Can they even trust themselves?  Can people change for themselves or do they change for others just so they can get what they want?

This weekend has been a VERY trying weekend, as you can tell, and I just wish I knew the answer to all of these questions.  Wouldn't it be simplier if you were given a book that was about how to live the best life.  Be given step by step instruction on how to make it happen?  The truth is life isn't as we know it and life isn't cut and dry, straight and simple.... and it never will be!  Are we all alone in this world and can only rely on oursevles?  It seems the older we get the more things go wrong and astray. Why is that?  Shouldn't it be the older we get then the happier we become?

Well, here is to hoping for a much better and restful week ahead!